Have you heard of developmental leaps? No? Well neither had I until I read about it in a leaflet given to me by the hospital. Leaps are sudden changes in a baby’s mental development. They occur around the same time for every baby and, thanks to this wonderful app I downloaded, I can track them all.
Molly is quite a relaxed baby. She has been for as much as I can remember. Even in labour, the midwives kept checking her heartbeat and saying she was a very happy baby. That was until this week. I feel like she’s making up for 3 months of peace. I can’t complain too much, she sleeps through every night so at least I’m getting sleep. She will not, however, sleep during the day at the moment. I try everything. I’m now that parent that walks around with their baby in the pram just so she can get some sleep.
I’ve also spent a lot of this weekend walking around the living room bouncing a screaming baby. My baby that, at one time, rarely cried. Especially during the day. I’ve not had a moment to myself. I’ve not even been able to put her down so I can go to the toilet without her screaming. And it’s proper crying, with real tears. It’s heartbreaking.
I’m mentally exhausted. More than once this week I’ve wondered why I wanted a child. And then I spend the rest of the day hating myself for even thinking it. She’s worth it though. One flash of that cheeky little smile and I’m reminded why I do it all. I wouldn’t change her for the world. But I cannot wait for this leap to end and have my chilled out baby back please!
It’s not all been bad. Look at her first time in her chair! I can’t believe my tiny baby is sitting in a chair all by herself!
